Some Unforgettable Firsts

We all have a first of many things and the first time of a lot of things is unforgettable....I was just thinking about what are the firsts which I can never forget....

1. My first shopping spree with dad
2. The first time i got miffed at mom n dad (this was funny)
3. The first time I ever had non vegetarian food
4.  The first time I went to school
5. the first movie I saw with family
6. the first pani puri I had at elco
7. The first class teacher
8. The first best friend
9. my first surgery
   
10. The first crush
11. The first " first" rank in class
12. The first punishment 
13. The first remark in my calendar
14. The first group i had
15. The first fight with friends
16. The first fight with people I didnt know
17. the first time i joined tuitions
18. the first time i started flirting...
19. The first lecture bunked in college.....
20. the first movie/bowling alley visit on bunking
21. the first time i flunked my papers
22. the first time I organized a party
23. the first time I stood in the queue for engineering
24. the first admission I got (it was not TSEC)
25. My first day in TSEC
26. the first few people I got to know
27. My first group in tsec
28. my first drink with friends in TSEC
29. My first try out for the TSEC football team
30. MY first match for TSEC
31. My first Trifles
32. My first BITS pilani Trip
33. MY first TSEC tournament
34. My first love
35. my first girlfriend (not my first love!)
36. my first date
37. my first kiss
38. my first break up
39. The first time I lost some one dear!( my dad)
40. The first first class in engineering
41. the first IPL!
42. The first time I went to a rock show
43. The first Job
44. The first day in office
45. they first business I got the company
46. My first salary
47. the first gifts I got for my family
48. my first felicitation in office
49. my first late nite drive to Ayubs and Bade miyan
    
50. my first football session in office
    
51. my first rickshaw driving experience!
    
52. my first clubbing experience with office friends

These are just some memories that I have till date....am sure I missed some of them unknowingly and some purposely but they are all special ;)

The Underdog!

One of the most hilarious advertisements I have seen off late is the Mint O fresh one....where the CHALIYA impresses the gaav ki gori by eating mint O fresh....It is such a corny ad but It hits you where it would connect the most.....

I was wondering why I like this ad and I realized that there was nothing in the ad....I am not into guys so the chaliya wouldnt interest me and the gaav ki gori is not so hot either....the only reason it connects is because of the UNDERDOG syndrome!

Underdog : a person who is expected to lose in a contest or conflict.

don't we all feel in such a position atleast once in our life?? and dont we wish we had someone to back us and take us past the victory line?? I don't know if anybody except the Aussies felt the pinch of their loss.....the whole world was rejoicing when SA beat australia or when france beat Brazil in the world cup.....these are events you would have wanted to happen somewhere in your heart....

Everybody in their lives feels like the underdog sometime or another. and sometimes you just accept it that you cant win and turn into a LOSER while on the other hand you take the tag up and rise to the occassion and fight the tag to win.....the choice is ours....to be a Underdog and win or to become a LOSER!

Story of a lonely son

I held his hand and walked along

No fear whatsoever                                                                                    

In him I always bestowed upon

My trust which was blind

He took me places and taught me things

Showed me the meaning of emotions within

He taught me to love and live in peace

He cried and worried even if I would sneeze

I didn’t know who he was and why he cared

They told me he was my dad.

I never understood what that meant

And found his love too cagey

I fought with him as I grew

Hurting his heart and shredding it through

He never complained and kept his faith

He believed his son could never go bad

His trust in me was never ending

And with him I kept fighting

Over the years, I realized how much I loved him

But it was not until I had lost him

I didn’t realize what I had lost

He took with him a friend, philosopher and guide

Now I wish he would come back to me

I would love him and express it free

One thing in his lifetime I could never do

To tell him how much I loved him true

I wish I had said it before                             

Dad I love you and now I wish you were here

Stucck in my head!!!

I came home at 6 in the morning from work completely brain fucked and irritated that I had had yet another frustrating day at work!.....I love my work but when things aren' t even moving and nothings happening for a long time it gets to you!!!

Right from early days in my life I have always been told I had immense potential and I have always failed to live up to my potential and its kinda become an enigma now! results are so enigmatic to me that I really need to chase and chase them down after doing all the ground work....I am just to miffed that I am letting myself down and I can do nothing about it.... I guess thats why they say that you need the rub of the green going your way sometimes and it has not been that ways for me for I dont know how long!

I hate this rant and I would be the last person to get into self pity mode which we all so love to do! My dream is to be a successful Man and all these small obstacles can try all they like and I will still be a successfull man!

Man now I feel so stressed out....Now I understand why working people experience stress.....its a rat race this world and you can talk alll you like and be as good as you can but if you cant win the race all the softer aspects go down the drain! they call sales a numbers game and I know now why! Numbers is everything and numbers is all they care about! Its difficult but not impossible but I had to vent it out somewhere so I wrote it out ;)

Need to head now for my shower....gotta go back to work now to fight for my potential and win....

adios

Speechless~~~!!

Today was one of the most historic days of my life.....In my 21 years of existence I don't think I have witnessed many occassions which I would remember for the remainder of my life....today was one such occassion...

My beloved friend....who also happens to be my sister won the second prize in the Miss world contest and It all feels so surreal! From Girl next door to the face of india its been a commendable journey for this girl and I feel glad that I have been a part of this journey whatever little my part was..

Elation,jubiliation,happyness,joy....I am falling short of words to describe what I feel right now and It makes me proud to say that she is my friend and my sister.

Ok enough of emotional talk ....lets get real lolz....

I saw surya on TV today and it was really hilarious....I agree that I shouldnt find it hilarious but I cannot help it! The presenter took a short interview of mine too but god damn it never aired it! Huh thats what they say much ado about nothing! Man I felt I would bcome a celebrity too ....so what if its only for a moment but that would have been mine lolz...but I still feel like a celebrity....afterall my sister has won the 2nd place in miss world!

I was my best dressed in a nice blue shirt and my lee cooper jeans and she took a nice 2-3 minute interview but nothing came up lolz....Made a fool outta me :P but I wouldn't mind being a fool a million times over n over again to witness this moment!

If I ever had to create a bucket list I would've put that moment in it...seeing paro win the crown and I am glad I have cherished it before I kick the bucket....lolz and I have still a long way to go....so now I can replace that wish with something else....

anyways guys I know this ones a crappy lil blog but I am speechless as the topic says...

signing off...cheers

India vs Jihad Part 2

its been a long long time since my last post and I think whatever happened on november 26 till this moment is been a reaction to what i wrote earlier!I god damn cannot believe how a city like mumbai with all its security and all its strength can fall victim to a bunchful of wishful youngsters who came into the city using a dinghy of all things and got the bettere of the city brandishing their guns much like toy guns!

cut to 10 PM Zycus office (TT room)

 

here I was engaged in a fierce battle of wits and strength and of determination in the table tennis room of my office. I was playing a fiercely competitive game of TT when I got the first phone call from home.

Mom : there has been a blast around Taj and another blast at CST

Me : Dont worry I will be fine and will come home in the morning if you are gonna be worried

Mom : ok,come in the morning.reach home safe.

Me : alrighty mom.good nite

The match continued and i was in a crucial situation when my new htc p3350 rang again!

Me : yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ( a rather irritated one to anu)

Anu : bachi terrorists in mumbai! hostage situation at taj!

Me : dont worry it will be over by a couple of hours

Anu : lets hope so.you stay safe.good night

Me : yups.good nite.sweet dreams!

and I was looking at ashok my rival and realized he was on the phone as well! his folks telling him the samething.we continued the match and within a gap of 2 points my phone sounded the mental inside tune..oops i mean intel inside tune...my message alert tone.

I read

anu says : bachi fuck! 50 terrorists entered mumbai.hostage situation at Taj and Oberoi!scary na!

Me (while reading it) : holy fuck man ashok! hostage situation!

we left the Table tennis room immediately to reach the conference room.I logged on to NDTV.com to see their live coverage of this mega event or happening!

since then its been on! NDTV at office and NDTV at home.

cut back to the blog.

I had an off the past two days and the only thing I have done is being glued on to NDTV or for that matter the other news channels!

It is the voice of most indians and mine alike! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! How long can we keep saying lets testify the spirit of mumbai and the spirit of india and rise out of this!

i think its become an over used cliche` : Spirit of Mumbai!

Its high time the politicians ( bloody selfish bastards) did something worthwhile and showed some leadership spirit on their part or a selflessness for the cause of the country!I think the whole political game is been overplayed and it is affecting the peace of the people!

The question that keeps coming to my mind is where was prathibha patil our new unqualified useless president??Not one public statement throughout this mayhem!now is this the only reason why we elect a president? or for that matter even our PM who seems to be a robot or even better a puppet at the hands of an italian lady!I think he eats thinks and does only what the italian lady says!this is politics of sorts!

I heard the PM's speech post during the mayhem and it was anything but inspiring or anything but words of courage from the leader of a nation!

Had the politicians invested more money on our intelligences rather than their own Z class security;this mayhem would have been avoided! I dont understand how can intelligence of a nation fail so badly!god damn it! we wouldnt let a bloody cockroach or a lizard enter our houses and we let these filthy terrorists this blood sucking blood thirsty assholes enter our nation so easily and to wreck one of our proudest possessions the TAJ!

Another thing which hit me like an arrow was maharashtra's beloved Mr Thackeray! Where was he or should I ask where were they? both the senior and junior thackeray? Not a single statement issued in support of their much beloved mumbaikar or marathi manoos? This incident has truly showed whose got the balls to truly stand up for the city and who hasn't!

I must say I have a word of appreciation for the terrorists though.Not for what they did but with the determination and planning they did it with!Only if we as a nation could show such determination and planning,we can outdo such ravaging attacks on the hearts of our people and the country!

Last but not the least

3 cheers and my salute to the martyrs who lost their lives.The Martyrs are not only the jawans,the cops or the RAF personnel who died in battle but also the taj employees who laid down their lives to save their guests truly embolizing the phrase " athithi devo bhavah"

INDIA vs JIHAD!

Disdain,Pain,anger,disgust,empathy,patriotism.....are a few emotions that i am going through as i write this post.

I dont know how and where to begin because all these emotions have left me numb. all these emotions have come together due to these delhi blasts that happened recently and they also gave me a sense of deja` vu! I dont know if i would be better off living in my own world not worried and bothered by whats happening in another state but One thing I know for sure is that it has disturbed me no end!.....

over the years some anti social elements have made us indians a soft target....it all began at the AirPlane Hijack in my opinion....the Modern JIHAD is what they call it!....I SAY BALLS TO SUCH JIHAD! No book that speaks about god and about godliness will ever encourage the killings of a fellow human being be it hindu or be it muslim! The very fact that People are looking to kill one another in the name of religion shows that they are the biggest aetheists on this earth and that they dont believe in god or for that matter his teachings....

Every hindu is anti muslim god knows why! and every muslim is hounding for the Hindu blood! I say it is utterly ridiculous to brand someone a terrorist or someone a "Betrayer" purely becoz of their religion is unacceptable! Afterall every Hindu has the same 2 hands and 2 legs, a nose, 2 eyes ,a mouth and 2 ears and it doesnt take rocket science to realise that muslims are made no differently and that they are from the same race! why do we forget that we are HUMAN BEINGS FIRST AND THEN A HINDU OR A MUSLIM!!!

where has all the love and the brotherhood gone!?why can we not trust each other for our lives??why have we all become so selfish about realizing our own dreams by trampling some one else's world and happyness?? when will the likes or RAJ THACKREY,JAYA BACCHAN call themselves INDIAN First and then a Maratha or a UPite??

My friends tell me it was Jaya bachchans fault to make a sarcastic remark at maharashtrians....I say it is no ones fault or even better it is everyones fault! Had we thought of ourselves an Indian first our hearts would have ached to see what happened at delhi or bangalore a couple of months back or for that matter jaipur,Mumbai.....

and only if we call ourselves indians first will we be able to stop all this....afterall it is all about fighting for one cause which is clearly exemplified by the JIHADIS! they manage to get it right with their blasts and attacks purely they are in cohesion in unison to fight for that one cause they think is right which is JIHAD! and mind you these are not more than million people at the most! and we are a billion of us!! if we chose INDIA as our cause and stand up for it and decide to fight for the safety and well being of it can we not kick those Jihadis out???? think about it guys.....we have lost our consscience somewhere and if we can find it then we can surely put an end to most of our problems......