A tribute to my Friends!

as i write this am goin thru mixed emotions....my principles and my judgement were all put to test when dad passed away last month...it was a tragic period and thats when u get to see life's most darkest and truest colors....

we often realise how good we have been all the previous years during the time of acute crisis like this one...i was goin through a similiar anxiety...

its one comparable to performance anxiety because u have to stand up to the occasion and not let the event get the better of you...

its like a big match you play on the field...comparable to a final...the onus to win it is on you but you cannot do it without the support of your team mates...and this case my team mates were and have always been my friends...

they say a friend in need is a friend indeed and each one of my friends...prakash,koru,aadi,chabbu,rohan,ravi,gaurav,punit,bunny,lokesh,swapnil,rohit everyone has proved it true...

they also say that relations with love and affection as the basis are far greater than blood relations and that has been proved by the invaluable support i have got from my two foster sisters paro and poo...they have been the pillars of strenght for me and those guys above have been the cement that has bound it all together....

we have always called the gurls the weaker sex but i feel my gurls(that is my friends who are gurls) have proved that its not that ways....they have rose to this acute crisis in my life in an inexplicable manner....i really cannot decipher the emotions i feel when i talk of them...vaddu...rupali...neha..rajul...each one of them have been like a backbone in themselves...

they say behind every successful man theres a woman but i say there would be many women behind my success....

last but not the least my dad gave me the most valuable lesson in life at the end...about who are the people i need to protect and keep wid me in life forever like treasured gems...and it is my friends for sure....and he also taught me who are the fakers and i have spotted quite a few...but dont wanna name drop in here coz everyones done their best....

love ya my friends...am totally overwhelmed by the way you all have helped me through this phase and am proud of you all and about my own choice of people!cheers to all of you!

The LAST LETTER

Dearest dad

I am really sorry for what happened last night. Well I was kind of feverish last night since I had got wet in the rain and when mom yelled at me I got really pissed off but that is no justification for my actions. I promise to u that henceforth u shall see a visible change in my behavior.

Well I would also like to tell u one thing dad, don’t stress your mind with my education or my career issues. I assure u that I have thought abt it enough and that I shall be successful in whatever I shall do. U don’t know how much respect and love I have for u dad but afterall am your son…its really difficult for me to express what I feel for u.i really cannot do it so easily with you or mom for that matter.

U have an image that my friends got more importance to me which is absolutely wrong dad coz how can they be so important to me that I forget you and mom ever in my life its u afterall who have given me life and got me this far.dad u and mom are my best friends forever and u shall always be the most important thing in my life and make no mistake abt it.

Well I know am a lil too temperamental and short tempered but I am tryin my best to keep myself in control. Its like one of those bad habits which a person tries to control.

I really do not mean to hurt u or mom in anyway but my temper jus shoots off and I cant hold my emotions back. The only problem that I have with u and mom is that u all make a judgement far too easily i.e if I do somethings at home u tend to force it onto me that I shall be like that at work too which is not the case dad…ppl change with responsibilities and I know whats expected of me in different situations.

Dad u are the worlds best dad and mom is the worlds best mom and am lucky to have u two as parents. And trust me that I shall let nothing happen to u both as llong as am around so dad just stop worryin abt whats gonna happen to mom in future.i shall always take care of her.and as far as u go…u are the person I look upto for inspiration always deep down inside so stop worryin abt ur health coz u are perfectly fine dad.

And dad one more thing am now 20 yrs old treat me like an adult dad u can share ur problems with me and I shall always try to help u out as much as I can. I really cannot see u and mom with that worryin look on ur face and it killing to know that I cant do much about it.

Dad pls give me a chance to improve and be a good son to u n mom.am really sorry if I have hurt u.its upto u now to talk to me or not.

Am really sorry.

now my dads left me and gone so far away that i cant even take a fight wid him let alone asking him for forgiveness....

Dad pls come back really really miss you man....gimme a chance to fight with u!

i will do all the comp work u want me to man come back pls!

pls dad!

love you forever.