Sunday, November 18, 2007

A tribute to my Friends!

as i write this am goin thru mixed emotions....my principles and my judgement were all put to test when dad passed away last month...it was a tragic period and thats when u get to see life's most darkest and truest colors....

we often realise how good we have been all the previous years during the time of acute crisis like this one...i was goin through a similiar anxiety...

its one comparable to performance anxiety because u have to stand up to the occasion and not let the event get the better of you...

its like a big match you play on the field...comparable to a final...the onus to win it is on you but you cannot do it without the support of your team mates...and this case my team mates were and have always been my friends...

they say a friend in need is a friend indeed and each one of my friends...prakash,koru,aadi,chabbu,rohan,ravi,gaurav,punit,bunny,lokesh,swapnil,rohit everyone has proved it true...

they also say that relations with love and affection as the basis are far greater than blood relations and that has been proved by the invaluable support i have got from my two foster sisters paro and poo...they have been the pillars of strenght for me and those guys above have been the cement that has bound it all together....

we have always called the gurls the weaker sex but i feel my gurls(that is my friends who are gurls) have proved that its not that ways....they have rose to this acute crisis in my life in an inexplicable manner....i really cannot decipher the emotions i feel when i talk of them...vaddu...rupali...neha..rajul...each one of them have been like a backbone in themselves...

they say behind every successful man theres a woman but i say there would be many women behind my success....

last but not the least my dad gave me the most valuable lesson in life at the end...about who are the people i need to protect and keep wid me in life forever like treasured gems...and it is my friends for sure....and he also taught me who are the fakers and i have spotted quite a few...but dont wanna name drop in here coz everyones done their best....

love ya my friends...am totally overwhelmed by the way you all have helped me through this phase and am proud of you all and about my own choice of people!cheers to all of you!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

The LAST LETTER

Dearest dad

I am really sorry for what happened last night. Well I was kind of feverish last night since I had got wet in the rain and when mom yelled at me I got really pissed off but that is no justification for my actions. I promise to u that henceforth u shall see a visible change in my behavior.

Well I would also like to tell u one thing dad, don’t stress your mind with my education or my career issues. I assure u that I have thought abt it enough and that I shall be successful in whatever I shall do. U don’t know how much respect and love I have for u dad but afterall am your son…its really difficult for me to express what I feel for u.i really cannot do it so easily with you or mom for that matter.

U have an image that my friends got more importance to me which is absolutely wrong dad coz how can they be so important to me that I forget you and mom ever in my life its u afterall who have given me life and got me this far.dad u and mom are my best friends forever and u shall always be the most important thing in my life and make no mistake abt it.

Well I know am a lil too temperamental and short tempered but I am tryin my best to keep myself in control. Its like one of those bad habits which a person tries to control.

I really do not mean to hurt u or mom in anyway but my temper jus shoots off and I cant hold my emotions back. The only problem that I have with u and mom is that u all make a judgement far too easily i.e if I do somethings at home u tend to force it onto me that I shall be like that at work too which is not the case dad…ppl change with responsibilities and I know whats expected of me in different situations.

Dad u are the worlds best dad and mom is the worlds best mom and am lucky to have u two as parents. And trust me that I shall let nothing happen to u both as llong as am around so dad just stop worryin abt whats gonna happen to mom in future.i shall always take care of her.and as far as u go…u are the person I look upto for inspiration always deep down inside so stop worryin abt ur health coz u are perfectly fine dad.

And dad one more thing am now 20 yrs old treat me like an adult dad u can share ur problems with me and I shall always try to help u out as much as I can. I really cannot see u and mom with that worryin look on ur face and it killing to know that I cant do much about it.

Dad pls give me a chance to improve and be a good son to u n mom.am really sorry if I have hurt u.its upto u now to talk to me or not.

Am really sorry.



now my dads left me and gone so far away that i cant even take a fight wid him let alone asking him for forgiveness....

Dad pls come back really really miss you man....gimme a chance to fight with u!

i will do all the comp work u want me to man come back pls!

pls dad!

love you forever.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Gone by Jack johnson...how apt a song for the world!



Look at all those fancy clothes,
But these could keep us warm just like those.
And what about your soul? Is it cold?
Is it straight from the mold, and ready to be sold?

And cars and phones and diamond rings,
Bling, bling, those are only removable things.
And what about your mind? Does it shine?
Are there things that concern you, more than your time?

Gone, going.
Gone, everything.
Gone, give a damn.
Gone, be the birds, when they dont wanna sing.
Gone, people, all awkward with their things,
Gone.

Look at you, out to make a deal.
You try to be appealing, but you lose your appeal.
And what about those shoes youre in today?
Theyll do no good, on the bridges you burnt along the way.

Are you willing to sell, anything?
Gone, with your hurt.
Leave your footprints,
And well shame them with our words.
Gone, people, all careful and consumed.

Gone
Gone, going.
Gone, everything.
Gone, give a damn.
Gone, be the birds, when they dont wanna sing.
Gone, people, all awkward with their things,
Gone.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

makkad manav kyun?

i was in college wid friends and was keen on watchin a movie....most friends backed out but well as they say birds of a feather flock together....swapnil agreed....and then after a lot of banter abt why we were goin for a movie while others were hanging out in coll and that we cud go sometime laters etc me and swapnil headed straight to the theatre....

when i reached the theatre the first thing that hit me...(like always) was the exorbitant charges they take for a 4 by 4 feet of space that they give u to park the bike!thats when u tend to realise how valuable real estate is! 20 rs for 3 hrs! for a 4 by 4 space lolz....anyways cut back to the front end of the theatre....

swapnil was checking the listings out and we both unanimously agreed to catch the friendly neighborhood spiderman!but there was one hitch....swapnil didnt want to watch it in english and i didnt wanna watch it in any other language!but then after a lot of persuation i agreed and we bought tickets for makkad manav(now thats how i shud be calling poor spiderman!)

the problem worsens because spider man in hindi means addition of a lot of more things other than only the language....they very nicely get in the different indian dialects within the hindi version and make the editor of the daily bugle a punjabi!(for heavens sake simply becoz editor is a guy with a heavier barritone u make him a punjabi!) not only that spiderman is ultra senti with his dialogues to mary jane....i mean even a normal gurl wud find a guy wid that type of a language a creep....cmon guys give some respect to mary jane shes a celebrity let her have a guy who is charming ......

the movie was full of shite and it didnt go down well wid me....i was wondering since then have any foreigners ever dubbed our movies for their audience then why should we?
the answer is simple...while most of their country is educated and can read...ours cant....and so our very considerate directors painstakingly dub the dialogues of every movie.......

even if i say that we aint got a high literacy rate am sure most of our country can boast abt their ability to read the national language....and this must be made mandatory if it is not as of yet!

i really think that use of indian languages on english movies not only screws the movie but also goes to show the poor state of the country....and i wud definitely not want to see our country be talked abt in bad light....

basic education is a must and every child must get it...afterall its their right...am lucky and priveleged to have got to enjoy this right but then i shall make sure i also take it as a responsibility and try my best to not let any child go uneducated.....and am sure if everyone of us took it up to us to do so we wud definitely not need to see any english movies dubbed in hindi or bhojpuri....
and then there wud be no longer the legend of makkad manav!

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

complicated!

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become


Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

.......

thats comlicated by avril....and i can bet that no one can deny the fact that we all can identify with the lyrics....its just so contemprorary and jus so us!

we all go through a phase where we are forced to change ourselves according to a particular group we live in....if it were only habits its ok( and that too for the good)....but if one has to change his very own self and have an image makeover to such an extent that he cant identify his own true self what is the purpose of existence?!..

people wud say "when in rome do as the romans do" but they imply "when in rome become a roman and forget urself"....its just so not fair for a person to change himself to "fit in"

Fitting in is an issue which every person faces at a point in life called teenage....and if not teenage then youth....coz theres no person who hasnt made amends or rather changes to himself/herself to fit in to a group....or a society.....why cant we just be us and why cant others accept everyone else the way they are....

the society can make a mountain out of a molehill so damn easily....they wud be snobbish to a person wearin a pink shirt....or a person who laughs too loud....or a girl who is equally comfortable wid guys as much as wid gurls....(they call such gurls as sluts to be honest!) i mean why make a predicament and that too a biased one on a person simply coz he/she is different from the robotic world that u live in?

am sure there are those people in that robotic world who think wish we cud also jus not care for this damned world but then they get a reality check ....they need a business contract....they need some contact....they like that girl in the pink dress and so on and so forth and hence they cannot jus be themselves coz people might not accept their true real existence!

why is it such an issue to be urself in public?i can surely say that if everyone learns to be themselves the world wud have real human beings and not programmed robots who are not sure of their identities.....think over it and u wud soon know if ur a robot or a human being!

Thursday, May 31, 2007

smells like rain spirit!

aaah...what a welcome respite from the smeltering heat....the rains always give u this feeling dont they.....

rains have always been special and wonderful lest they become monsters like a few years back..otherwise they are always enjoyable and take u down the memory lane and revive those nostalgic memories of childhood....

the first rains moresover are so special.....the smell of the earth teasing ur olfactory cords after an year.....it in my opinion is the best perfume....smells so greatits just so amazing...
theres nothing as valuable as living ur childhood time and again and reminding urself abt those days how u played in the water and released paper boats in the little puddles....jumped in them and got drenched....its a different thrill altogether....theres not a single being who is spared of this wonderful feeling by the rains...be it a octagenarian or a toddler....they all love the rains and love to get wet in the rain...the animals love it ....the plants love it and it shows in those pearl like drops that accumulate on their leaves....u jus feel llike treasuring them forever!

and not to forget sipping in on hot coffee as u admire natures most beautiful season from the balcony of ur house....or having hot fried bhajias(its a indian delicacy as u all know).....

and yeah how can i forget this one.....playing football in the rains its jus the best thing to do.....man rains i love it so much....

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

poor country!duh!

man as i write this am totally confused and flumoxed by the fact that we...indians are considered to be one of the poorer lot and more so over india as a country as a poor country...

well wat gave rise to this confusion is something massive thats happening in the city of dreams(not NY) mumbai...

mukesh ambani the ace business entrepreneur and owner of reliance india ltd is makin his house!
whats so surprising abt it ???well the house is spread over an area of 4000 sq.m and is 27 storeys which is actually equivalent to 60 normal storeys....

this staggering construction is well equipped wid a gymnasium,swimming pool....a 6 storey car parking lot which can house 168 cars!....a home theatre(literally)...health club.....and what not.....the entire building wud have a staff of around 600 people and the cost of the land alone is around Rs 350 Cr let alone the construction and other charges....

and its not over yet....it has abt 4 helipads in the entire building along with an atheletic track in the building itself!all this to house a family of around not more than 10....which includes his wife nita....his kids and his mother kokila....

man and we thot we were a poor country....where does all this money come from!

am to say the least overwhelmed by the happening of events in our country and i have no answers to whats happening...i can only sit and ponder days on end!.....

Saturday, May 26, 2007

friendship and love

man these are two of the most beautiful feelings a human being can ever expierience.....there are so many relations in life ...the son...the father...the brother...yet what takes the cake is friendship and love...

people often say that friendship is a greater emotion than love but i say that both these relations cannot be successful without each other....you cannot be a good friend if u cant love a person....and u cant love a person if u arent his/her good friend!

they jus go hand in hand.....and lucky are the people who expierience the best part of both these emotions in life!luckily i am one.......have expierienced the best of friendship in my life...been proud to have all those men in my life as friends as also the women....

aditya...prakash...saurabh...sagar...rohan...ravi.....paro...poo..these are some names that have been with me since my kindergarten days and i thot life wud be impossible without em when people like rahul...rohit...swap...priyesh...neeti...divij...came in and made me realise that u never stop makin friends in life jus as u dont stop growin a beard lolz....

thank u all ya fellas for bein there and makin life so beautiful...it wudnnt be the same without u all....

as far as the love part goes am still waitin ......

cheers to all these wonderful people in my life!i love u all a lot friends....

heres a review.....

well one major hurdle that comes our way right from kindergarten till we get a job is exams...well exams for admission to school...exams for gettin out of school...exams for gettin a job...exams for leavin a job....man exams exams exams......there wud be soon one day when there wud be an exam to be called as the son of ur parents...to prove ur the brother of ur sister....n so on ....

why do we need exams?i mean can there be no other way to bloody test the character n merit of a person?i mean cmon how many of them understand what they write in an exam?....they either mug it up or jus blindly copy it from here n there....it dont make sense at all...well why am i broodin abt exams coz mine are on!

this past week has been mixed and filled wit various emotions.....i saw the joy of doin weill in my papers ...saw the agony of seein my fave club liverpool lose to ac milan....saw the excitement of seein my neice at my place.....saw the frustration of not bein able to talk to that one special person in my life....

anyways lifes like this and love is a beautiful feelin we all must expierience...

for now adios...

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

my first blog......

well as i write this there are a million questions lingering in my mind but then i wud rather let those questions unfurl and unwind as i get more and more comfortable wid expressing myself to the entire world which i think is an achievement in itself......

well let me jus begin wid givin and introduction abt myself....

am deepak ramesh....a 20 yr old young man tryin to make my mark in life....a place for myself in this not so considerate world which am gradually gettin to see....am doing my engineering from a "credible" institution called thadomal shahani engineering college....based in bandra mumbai....the college has everything one expects from a college which charges 55k as its fees....but its kind of unfair coz having such a high fees means many students who deserve it cant get into it coz they cant afford it!its so sadening to see this...

well let me not divulge from the motto behind my first post which is introducing myself and i guess enuffs been said abt me...the other things probably u all might wanna know is my hobbies,my interests etc..and am not even sure whether all of u are interested either or not....but in any case this is my first post and i feel that i just need to get other ppl to know me...

am totally a football freak....soccer as the americans call it( which i dont approve of....but then i dont think they would change their dictionary for me...)i love playing the game and watchin it and i truly believe that it is the mother of all games and it doesnt get the respect it deserves in this part of the world which i stay in...INDIA.....other than that i love singing...chatting online....analysing human behaviour....reading etc......music is life and there are very few things which give u as much satisfaction as music does!

before i sign off jus wanna remind all the football fanatics...dont forget to catch the UEFA champions league final on the 23rd nite...LFC vs AC milan...

and by the way am routing for LFC my fave club..

cheers and hope i will be welcome to this world