Deja` Vu

I am quite familiar with what the sense of deja vu is... there have been many times where I have thought I have been through this before.....

however, there is a very weird sense of deja vu Rishi is going through... a feeling which takes u through an emotional roller coaster....a feeling which leaves u warm and fuzzy inside.... here is what Rishi went through....

This has been the story of Rishi's life and I am going to focus mainly on his love life.... for the sake of convenience I would wanna call them Gangu bai and radha..... Gangu bai and Rishi were friends through a common friend....while radha and Rishi met through the surreal world of the internet....they met, they spoke, they started dating and soon they realized that things weren't working out and so in about 5 months they parted ways.... Rishi was enjoyin single hood...things were fine and then one fine day Rishi starts to get this feeling that he had a crush on Gangu bai and he realized that it was maybe this crush he had which didn't let him see things clearly with radha ( I know its a little confusing but then I swear, I swear to the lord he can never two time or cheat on a person!)... so now that the realization dawned upon him... Gangu bai and rishi became very good friends and rightly so.... She had the sweetest voice, the softest heart n the most beautiful soul rishi had seen till that point in time...( when u like someone u see the whole world all pink n red lol)...

time passed, Gangu bai and rishi got closer n closer n Rishi kinda took it for keeps that Gangu bai and he were a couple.... not just him but all his friends thought so too...and so after about 1 year and few months of relentless sweetness n cute talks, Rishi conjured up the courage to ask gangubai out....and to the shock of his life, he get to know that she never really looked at him that way! ( so much for all the cute talks lol) and then he gets to know about his casanova image and his lack of responsibility sort of an image which actually led to his denial lol... those qualities are quite opposite to what they were made off.... He was shattered (isn't every guy for sometime lol) and he decided he would never talk to gangubai again....

here he was single again....however, there is a twist to the tale.... he met radha again.....and then he thought may be it was not fair that he did not give his relationship with radha a fair and honest attempt...and so he told radha about the facts and she thinks that they should go out again and they did...but then 4 months in to phase 2 of relationship 1, he realize that it was not actually his failure to give it a honest try but the relationship did not have wat it needed to succeed...and radha and rishi split again....

Rishi in the year after he split with radha again, did a lot of introspection and soul searching and realized he was not that bad afterall... he was a nice guy who did give his first relationship an honest try and things genuinely didn't work out...radha kinda played her part in telling rishi that he was right in thinking that way.... all this happened over a period of 5 years and rishi also had a friend call rinky who he thought would make a good partner but then he soon realizes that its not rinky....it just cannot be....they are just good friends n nothing more.

Meanwhile in the course of the 5 years…Rishi went through a lot of turmoil…he lost his grand parents ...he lost his pa…the one friend he never wanted to lose was his PA….and he lost him….Rishi did a lot of introspection in this phase and as they say it is difficult times which makes a man out of a boy! Rishi became a Man from a boy…. He changed to radically n for the good that nobody could not not notice the maturity, the calmness he had suddenly got… he became closer to his folks, to his friends who had been with him through thick n thin! He had indeed become a good man… n his work was treating well…he was one of the best there…and today he is got all he wants but this one person who he could call his companion, his partner … a person he would make laugh all his life and he would take pleasure in seeing her smile…rishi is a simple man with this small simple dream…he just wants to be the reason for the smile on her face and forever…..

recently rishi got in touch with this friend of his called nicki….he had known her as this bubbly little girl who was full of energy and enthusiasm… a quality which rishi always liked….something which he always admired in any person… he spoke to nicki and gradually after hours n hours of phone calls n chats he thought that he could do anything to see nicki smile…. The only worry rishi now has is that he does not want to lose nicki as a friend and the biggest concern he has is he does not want to freak nicki out! Coz nicki is this nice girl he thinks could be the one….so now here is rishi standing at this junction….where he is experiencing a weird sense of déjà vu…. A feeling that he has been through before… a warm fuzzy feeling he thinks he felt just once before when he was in love with gangubai….a feeling he never felt since then!

Rishi is in a state of to be or not to be…. He does not want to call it love yet…but he has no answers to the warm n fuzzy feeling inside… Rishi came to me and I told him…” dude u just gotta be patient n take yer time…” I am just gonna pray for rishi that his sense of déjà vu does not end In the same way….where he ends up distraught n shattered again…n that he eventually becomes the reason for someones smile forever ;)….cheers to rishi and good luck to him ;)